Why Now and Why This Platform? You May Ask!
Well the answer to these questions are pretty simple. 2018 for me has been a pretty shitty year. I have kept it fairly private so many of my friends do not know the journey I have been on, but no more… I am ripping the band aid off and I’m doing it publically! This platform allows me to unpack what I need to when I need to, on a public forum, which should ensure that I keep my ‘p’s and q’s’ reasonably acceptable…hopefully…maybe not.
There’s not a lot of things I hate in this wonderful world, but I REALLY, REEEAAALLLY hate the ‘C’ word. Now if you are a friend of mine and you are beginning to freak out, don’t. I am fine, I’m 100% well and perfectly healthy but the answer to ‘why now’ is because I have been diagnosed with breast cancer. (Insert shock music and wobble eyes here).
Like I said before, I need to work through stuff to help me, which does sound very selfish, but I also want to share this stuff just in case it can help others. Don’t run away cause the whole blog is not going to be about cancer…some of it will be…but lots of it will be about other stuff too.
Remember…When something bad happens to you, you have 3 choices. You can either let it define you, let it destroy you, or you can let it strengthen you.
You won’t believe what I did after I logged off this arvo.
One thing I am very mindful of these days is what I look like. You can imagine what it’s like as I walk out the door. Have I got everything? My keys, my phone, my purse…do I need to put makeup on…etc. We all know what I mean don’t we? Well, perhaps I am new to this ‘post cancer’ way of life, let’s just say I didn’t complete this process!
It wasn’t until I was 5 minutes away from where I was teaching when I patted a certain area to check and guess what….I left my falsey at home! (Sorry Hubby when you read this but I did). I felt really uncomfortable, almost in tears and just wanted to turn around, go home, and make up some pathetic excuse. But if you know me you know I couldn’t. I faced the consequences, provided a laugh to a very stressed colleague and the kids didn’t see anything amiss…I don’t think.
Laughing at yourself and sharing is great isn’t it?